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Today is December 24th, which is also the day before the much anticipated holiday, "Christmas".

I'm not excited so much for Christmas as I am for New Years.

A lot has happened this past 2009, and I'm ready to remember it, and to move on.

What has happened? Lots.

Let's start from the beginning.

January 2009-

-I befriended what would be a best friend.

-I pierced a body part.

-My Dad found out he had prostate cancer.

February 2009-

-I turned 19.

-I broke up with my girlfriend.

-I consequently lost my best friend.

-Lent 2009.

March 2009-

-I saw Paul Baribeau, and Good Luck, twice.

-I traveled from Orlando to Tampa all by myself, by way of train track.

-I camped.

April 2009-

-Panic attacks at UCF ceasing

-Spirituality increasing

-Home visits more frequent

May 2009-

-Started job at Starbucks

-Saw someone I've known for 19 years get married.

-Quality time at Apollo Beach.

June 2009-

-Practically matchmade two of my best friends.

-Practically acted like a douche about it.

-Substance, only.

July 2009-

-Car breaks down every week. I've had the car for years. First car.

-Lonely, nostalgic. Heavily.

-Go to Ginny Springs!

August 2009-

-Hello, North Carolina. I'm marrying you. Vacation.

-Goodbye Angelina, Jack, Audrey, Caleb, Clark.

-First depression/panic attack.

September 2009-

-School starts, work is beautiful.

-Read Precious.

-CCM Retreat, feeling airy.

October 2009-

-Everything costs so much.

-I miss everyone still.

-Halloween party.

November 2009-

-Start disposable camera journey (thx M.B.)

-Closure

-Thanksgiving, also, I work.

December 2009-

-Heavy need to leave elsewhere, like NYC, or Paris.

-Begin to teach thyself French.

-Last cigarette.

-New Years officially replaces Halloween as 'favorite secular holiday'.

That's pretty much it.

This year has been one of the hardest years of my life, and I guess that makes sense.

Although now I am slightly nauseous, and still ill from the flu, I feel like this was completely worth it.

Every phone call, every relationship, every bad word, every cigarette.

Totally worth it.

2009, you've been truly a blessing in disguise. I would have never thought I would be so upset to see you go, but, I know that you were indeed worth it.

2010, you better have something crazy.